Lately, a lot of things have been thrown at me at once and overwhelming me a tad. *understatement* I have discovered over these last few months, by being involved in my Magic Making Circle, how sensitive I am to things around me. I have realized how much I absorb others energy. I have never figured this out before, but by witnessing these women and their openness & vulnerability, it has opened my eyes. I am learning to let people go who do not fill me up. I am learning boundaries and that I need to distance myself from time to time to re-charge. I have learned that I am much better with my friends one on one. I know I crave deep conversations and connections instead of small talk and contrived friendships.
I have also noticed how I have numbed my feelings over the years. They were too much. I didn't know how to process them, so I numbed them. I didn't' want to feel them. I now know that there is power in these feelings. I know that this sensitivity can be used for a higher purpose. I know hiding who I truly I am...or masking or numbing - does not serve me any longer. I must throw away the masks and accept that not feeling the joy, the excitement, the pain, the sadness is not how to live authentically.
Now, I have become intrigued to find out how letting these feeling rise to the surface can catapult me forward. How can these feelings be used to benefit myself and others? I believe there are gifts to be found by allowing these feelings to have their space inside of me. I must now allow myself to feel fully...feel it all - and not be afraid to expose myself to the world.
It's time to get naked.