This canvas was my first canvas I began in my workshop, Bloom True, with the amazing Flora Bowley. I had three canvases going during the course, but this was the one that I started with first after each lesson. I always felt like this canvas was practice for letting go and trying out the new techniques. It went through many, many transformations. I got to a point where I felt like I was forcing the painting to be something it wasn't and it felt over-worked, so I sat it aside for two weeks.
I decided I would give it another try and covered the whole canvas with new colors. I continued to add marks, but still nothing came to me. I, once again, was SO frustrated and covered 90% of the painting in black and dark red, but continued to hear Flora's words..."there are no mistakes". Then, for some reason, I decided to wipe off the majority of the paint I just covered it in. It was late and I was frustrated, so I stopped. After a couple of days of looking at it and turning the canvas, I noticed a woman with a headdress.
I continued to wipe off paint, add a few more marks and very little extra color...and this is her!
I named her "The Warrior" as she fought to be seen as I fought to let go and have faith in the process. I love how she is looking up...to me - worshiping - maybe giving thanks. To me, she represents courage and faith. She is a testament to Flora's process! As one of my fellow bloomers suggested...Whenever you're in doubt about life...look at her"! Yes!! She now hangs in my bedroom so I see her every day.
In her honor, I share a Lakota Indian Prayer I had found awhile ago:
teach me how to trust
my inner knowing,
the senses of my body,
the blessing of my spirit.
teach me to trust these things
so that I may enter my sacred space
& love beyond my fear
and thus walk in balance
with the passing of each glorious sun.
Below is a progression of this painting...
The Warrior, a set on Flickr.