Reverb10.19 - Healing

December 19 – Healing.

What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011? (Author: Leonie Allan)

My healing this year started out as turmoil. I believe that sometimes it takes complete chaos to ‘wake you up’ and this is what happened to me this year. It was most definitely a drip-by-drip evolution.

This year started out with me stressed, worried and feeling hopeless. It seemed everything I had worked so hard for was spiraling out of control. I prayed and prayed for direction. I felt that many things were just out of my control at this point. So, I asked myself “What is something you can control in your life right now? What would make you feel better?” I decided I could go to the pilates class that I used to attend at my gym. I knew the instructor was awesome and it would make a difference. I didn’t beat myself up about making every single class…I just did the best I could do. I watched what I ate, but wasn’t “perfect” about it. If I was craving a cheeseburger, I would treat myself now and then.

I can say this worked for me! I continue to go to my pilates class – and have a love/hate relationship with it, but more love! I started going to yoga a couple times a week too. This one positive step in the right direction has made a tremendous change in my life. I feel better mentally & physically and am inspired to keep going.

Healing may not be so much about getting better, as about letting go of everything that isn't you - all of the expectations, all of the beliefs - and becoming who you are. ~ Rachel Naomi Remen

For 2011, how would I like to be healed? I would like to see my life from a fresh perspective...not base my 'judgments' of situations & people on what has happened in the past. I want to be able to help others – to be an inspiration somehow. I want my life to be stable enough that I can return to others what I have been given. I feel blessed. I want to bless others.