What do you wish to begin?
Interesting for the question to be about what I want to begin when my mind is focusing on what has ended. I recently ended a relationship I had been in for five years and have been having a really hard, hard time with it this week. Now I say relationship loosely as this was a man a cared deeply about but was a relationship that was not moving forward. There were ALOT of good things about it...laughing (always laughing), snuggling, kissing, holding - chemistry - damn that chemistry! ;-)
I could list reasons why I stayed when I knew in my heart I needed to leave in order to move forward with my life...but, they are not important anymore - and are just excuses. Excuses to not face the fear of being "alone" although in reality I was alone. I knew in my heart when I was "ready" I would step away. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but for the best. In order to really find what I wanted in a relationship, I knew I had to be open and available to find it. I couldn't remain attached - even though I still compare every little thing in other men to him right now. It'll fade away...! As my Mom always tells me...this too shall pass.
Yesterday, I watched this video (The Girl Who Looked In The Mirror) and boy, oh boy, did it hit home. The question that has stuck with me is...
If YOU don't show up, who is it that someone will fall in love with?
This love, this love that needs no words, is the love I know deep in my heart that will find me. I just needed all these past relationships and experiences to bring me to this point in life. Bring me to the point of knowing & loving ME!
So, what do I wish to begin?
I wish to begin TO SHOW UP everday...to be open to love <3
One of my favs...Rumi on love
a little creation of mine :-)
What do you wish to begin? WISH HERE!
As you wish for yourself, so I wish for you!!
This was a beautiful post. Sandy, as you wish for yourself, so I wish for you also. The quote you posted has been one of my favorites for a long time. Although I have always seen it credited to Rumi, not e.e. cummings.
ReplyDeleteThank you! You are right - it is Rumi - I corrected it! :-)
ReplyDeleteThank you Sandy for telling me about the video. It's wonderful, and yes, it hit home with me too. As you wish for yourself, so do I wish for you too .... and may you always appreciate what you see in the mirror :)
ReplyDeleteThere is a line in a song, don't remember which one. "God bless the crooked road that brought you to me." May you meet your someone special soon. As you wish for yourself, I wish also for you.
ReplyDeleteBrenda